Friday, June 12, 2009

Let Go...and LET GOD

These words have new meaning for me now....last week I had all but given up all hope...I was trying hard not to be devestated by the continuous flow of "your were not selected" to the jobs that I had applied was looking pretty grim

I had not heard back from the job with the Core...although I had called and talked to them numerous they knew my name and knew I was still around...waiting...waiting...tying patiently to wait...2 and a half months passed...surely if they wanted to hire me they would have called by now? So I put that dream on the back burner, not yet ready to let it go because deep down in my heart it so felt like "THE ONE" so to have given up would have been giving up every hope and and every dream of ever making it back to Texas...if this was to be my destiny it was in the hands of God to make it happen...the way I was feeling last week I don't know if I would have ever completed another application...I was at the end of my hope and didn't know what else to I asked God to please change my heart if living in Grand Forks was His will...I was a burden on my family by being so miserable here all the time...I couldn't endure myself much less continue like this and bring my family down too...I asked if it be God's will he would grant me the ability to love it here and make it my home...we even went out and purchased a swingset...something we have never done because we have not lived in a house long enough....Scott was midway through the project when I got the call from the Core...

The call that has changed the course of our lives forever...the call that has given us all new hope of a bright and joyful answer to hope...which came right from the heart...the heart of God. We are so very blessed!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

What a week!

I am still on cloud 9 after the past has been truly AMAZING!!!

God is Cheering for Youby Max Lucado
If your God is Mighty enough to ignite the sun, could it be that He is mighty enough to light your path?
God is for you. Not “may be,” not “has been,” not “was,” not “would be,” but “God is!” He is for you. Today. At this hour. At this minute. As you read this sentence. No need to wait in line or come back tomorrow. He is with you. He could not be closer than he is at this second. His loyalty won’t increase if you are better nor lessen if you are worse. He is for you.
God is for you. Turn to the sidelines; that’s God cheering your run. Look past the finish line; that’s God applauding your steps. Listen for him in the bleachers, shouting your name. Too tired to continue? He’ll carry you. Too discouraged to fight? He’s picking you up. God is for you.
God is for you. Had he a calendar, your birthday would be circled. If he drove a car, your name would be on his bumper. If there’s a tree in heaven, he’s carved your name in the bark. We know he has a tattoo, and we know what it says. “I have written your name on my hand,” he declares (Isa. 49:16).

I still don't know where to begin without starting from the beginning of the story and telling how every step and every broken road has lead me to this new beginning...just where God wants me to be.

Quick synopsis: I applied months ago for a job at Lake Proctor, TX (deep in the HEART of TEXAS) small town, deep rooted community...very mayberry (once in a lifetime opportunity)

The same EXACT day that I got my hope crushed completely by a job that I didn't get in Austin I received a call for an interview for this job...the job I knew in my heart the moment I read the job description was "THE BIG ONE" the one that I couldn't possibly qualify for...had I not come to Grand Forks and spent the last two years Administrative Support say it has all fallen into place would be such a massive understatement. The speed at which I am leaving is astonishing...God willing, I will be leaving Grand Forks on Independence weekend and my first day of work will be 6 birthday...a good day for a new beginning...don't ya think?

My mind and heart have been just overflowing with dreams and hope now...Its a major whirlwind and sometimes I feel like I am going to float away! I can see so many happy memories being made in my head...and its all due to the awesome grace of God. I didn't think I could survive these past two years...somedays were just survival and I wondered if I would make it to the light...but God's grace got me through the darkness and there is such JOY! I can't contain it all...I want to explode and my cup indeed runneth over. God is GOOD! All THANKS and PRAISE be to God!

Friday, June 5, 2009

Hold me Jesus

Well, sometimes my life Just don't make sense at all When the mountains look so big And my faith just seems so small

CHORUS: So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark It's so hot inside my soul I swear there must be blisters on my heart


Surrender don't come natural to me I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want Than to take what You give that I need And I've beat my head against so many walls Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army band Is playing this hymn And Your grace rings out so deep It makes my resistance seem so thin


You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace